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“Am I just punishing you? That every time you itch you come home to use me?! You can’t even look at or talk to your children every time you come home! Are we still important to you Gio?” It was a long litany as my tears flowed incessantly.

It hurts to think that every time he goes home to the cave he made for us, he will just release his prostration from wherever the hell he is from. I feel like I’m a p*t he bought on the street and he’ll only use it whenever he wants, I’m like a toy that after he’s used it, he’ll just throw it away.

I have a low opinion of myself, but every day I endure hoping that he will suddenly change and give us importance. But our children grew up but he still remained ignorant of my feelings, as well as our children.

“Do you know that every day when they wake up they always ask me about you? Where are you and why aren’t you at home? If only I could tell the truth to my children so that they would know that we are not your priority I’ll do it! But I don’t want to hurt the children so I’m just making up a story, which is a case of you doing a lot. But it’s tiring Gio, I don’t want my son to live and grow up with a lie” he said to him.

“Trust me Gio? What is the reason why you don’t introduce us to your world? Are you ashamed? Are you ashamed that the mother of your children is gay?!” Sadness and anger echoed in my voice as I uttered those words, even though I had a strong hunch that maybe the answer would be forced if pressed into my heart and mind that her reason was different.

“Shut the f*ck up Liam, I don’t have time for your drama. I’ve done a lot in the office so can you please stop your drama” he said firmly, I could see the extreme anger and frustration on his face .

“What did you answer?! I’m right! I’m right that you’re embarrassing us sap-” I couldn’t finish what I was going to say when he suddenly spoke loudly.

“Yes, you’re right! I’m ashamed that a gay woman became the mother of my children! Do you think I’ll be proud of you? You’re the reason why my life has become miserable! You’re the bad luck in my life!” He roared furiously while his fists shook with rage.

“Do you think I can be proud of you? What man can be proud of an abnormal gay who can get pregnant. If only I had known that you could get pregnant, I would have better just shot my t*mod on the blanket, when I had no problem and no obligation to yours” he said firmly that’s why I quickly ran my palm over his cheek.

“You have no shame! You’re right here with me but you often use me as a animal! What kind of father are you! How can you say all that to your son you animal!” The one who cries while punching his chest, because his body is big, he can easily block my punches.

“I don’t have time for you” he said and quickly pushed me, knocking me down.

My earlier crying was doubled by the painful words I heard from him. I was sobbing while lying on the cold floor. In the days that I endured for this family suddenly became meaningless, my dreams for this family have crumbled. And my waiting for him is gone.

“Dad” a shrill voice stopped me. I slowly wiped my face and quickly faced my son who was hiding in the door, only half of his face was showing.

“Oh son, are you done with your school yet?” I tried to raise my voice and pretend everything was fine.

“Why? Why are you crying? Did your classmate hurt you?” I said when I noticed his puffy eyes, that’s why I quickly approached him. I could see the tears he was trying to hold back from his eyes.

“I’ve heard everything” he said which surprised me a little.

“Papa let’s go away, if daddy doesn’t want us. Then we don’t need him too! Please Papa, I don’t want it here.” The crying son of Zion.

“son, alright, let’s go” I cried as I carried him to the room to pack.